finally hit me

I was visiting with a old (old being I have known her since my 2nd semester, and has been a gret lady to lean on and she has taken care of me every step of the way.) friend yesterday talking about the upcoming events....EFY, Utah for a Drs. APPT on my ears, helping out Julian and Alicia, my test....etc. I realized looking at her calender my time is REALLY coming to an end here at BYU-Idaho...It is REALLY happening. I started talking about how I heard when you walk into commencement there is a line of professors that are just standing there clapping for you. I then burst into tears knowing that this is really it. I can't imagine now leaving and not having the teachers and campus at my disposal. I know we all complain about how we want to leave and be out of this town...but I am really sad now that it is finally happening. Because really what are the chances at me ever returning? What are the chances for the teachers remembering me? What are the chances of me seeing the friends that live here or that will move on someone where else in the world? I know it seems dramatic but honestly this is what is happening and it just makes me sad. I just can't get over that this is happening.